So I have a Godly question...?

Do you think God would keep a person from church for a purpose? Maybe He has some plan. I know some of you are going to take this wrong, but maybe He's given up on me 'cause I sin constantly and then I say I am His and then don't really act like it. Maybe He's tired of me treating Him this way so He gives up. But don't take this the wrong way: God does not usually give up on people. He's a merciful God! But somehow I think I'm different...